Ring phone!

This is hard!!! This is by far harder than the previous nine and a half months. We are so close, but we are still waiting for the 'go ahead.' To make this part even more difficult, other people that were caught in the quota are getting thier EP's approved. I know ours will be at the right time, but it is just hard. I guess I let my hopes get way too high earlier in the week, and have just felt that low since then. I was so hoping we would be there at the end of this month, though knowing it isn't likely, the hope was there. February is a special month here and I don't want to miss a couple of events that are important to me as well as family and friends. However, when we get that call, we are gone!!!! I just want it all, I guess. Ha, that isn't how it works though is it?! A massive thank you to my friends and family who have been right there, especially in these last few days to continue to encourage us and pray for us. It means the world to get a text or an email. I know people must think, 'she has been talking about going to Korea forever...she must not really be going.' Well, I can't help all the unknowns and processes in adoption, but we will go....SOON.

Monday was a very tough day. Tuesday, we thought we were going to 'get the call.' My mom made the comment, "it is always darkest before dawn." Guess it is still dark? Everytime the phone rings, I jump, thinking, 'if I don't think this is the call, it will be.' Really dumb, I know. Today, my sister called. I said, "You have to start texting me before you call. I thought you were the call." She felt bad, that was not the intention.

My stomach is in knots and the days are long. I feel like I have done so well over this wait. Yes, I am patting myself on the back right now! However, now, I can't stand this.....RING PHONE!

I will end with a sweet thing that my neice said to my mom today. We have talked to her alot about Olivia and she is excited. I don't think she realizes how it will change our relationship. I am sad that will change, but I know she is going to love her 'best baby cousin.'

Here is the email I got on what she said:

Olivia, I want you to be safe coming home. I love you Olivia. Be healthy. Take care of Olivia, YaYa and drive safely John. I want you to be safe and good. Oscar Parker, you be safe, too. I love you YaYa, John and Oscar."

By the way, I am YaYa! :) Annelyn, my neice, is 3 1/2! Love her SO MUCH.